I just came back from LLTC 06. The camp which i never wanted to go because i thought it would take up too much of my time. I thought this camp would command too much commitment and therefore i did not go. yesterday, jacq called me before i was about to leave camp and i just sat outside the mega SJI toilet where i can see all my juniors from there. then i thought again, this camp isn't a waste of my time after all. in fact, i feel enlightened that i've attended this camp. i've said touching things that made my juniors cry. i've done things to inspire them. right now, i could not feel more satisfied.

once again, i'm bombarded by the fact that i'm starting to fall in love again. however, this time it's jacq. i never thought myself to even like her but i always surprise myself. i feel like breaking free from all the clutches of relationships. i wish i can fly so i can soar beyond my capabilities. soar to somewhere no one can find me.

leadership. i always thought that leadership is about following the traits the all leaders should have. following examples from books. only recently have i found myself to know that leadership is your own style. your personality. the person that you are. not what others say that you should. you're leading, not following. you're gotta trust yourself and the people around you. even when you're falling. even, when you're in the dark.
-XyeThesis

npcc

it's been a while since i enjoyed so much fun in npcc. after one moment of grief, i know truly know what is the meaning of letting go. the nco training camp, though boring as it is, has made me realised where i was 2 years ago when i was in the exact same camp. time passes and now i see myself training in the training camp. it is really enlightening to know that i have made an impact in some of the sec 3s that went through the camp. though i'm not too sure whether by doing this i have saved the unit, but i am sure that no matter whether they are fit to lead the unit or not, i know they'll pull through - like i did, 2 years ago.

i wrote rules but i knew rules were meant to be broken. time passes and rules expire. but then i thought, does everything need rules in order for everything to be right again?

to the sec 3 ncos:
it's been a pleasure knowing you all. i just want you all to know that whatever you do that's for the sake of the unit, i'll always support you.

i supposed there are those who'd said i had it easy coming this far. the journey that i walked was carried by the wind. wherever it wanted me to go. wherever god wanted me to go. as shaded as my eyes can be, i always know that there is a light unto my path. life can be scary as well as peaceful; boring as well and fun; problematic as well as manageable. i still want to, however, hold on to being a leader.

it'a hard to tell the truth when no want wants to listen, when no one really cares what's going on. it's hard to stand alone, you need someone beside you. your spirit, your faith, must be strong.

it's time to face my fears in the face.

XyeThesis
`Don't walk behind me; I may not lead.
Don't walk in front of me; I may not follow.
Walk beside me; that we may be as one.

I've been wanting to right this entry for quite sometime now. Everything seem to pass to fast nowadays. Life really do appear to be transient, something that seems to appear for only a while. The other day at my school's Drama Performance i saw Melissa again. This time i was holding her hand with her head tilted on my shoulders. I thought i really wanted her to be my girl and when her did that i felt myself to be closer to the reality. Thing is, right now i'm in a dilemma. Angel returned to me and Jaqueline's another pick.

I just saw the Logistics Procedures (Rules and Reg.) that i've written last year. Now i thought, does everything need rules in order for it to work well?

right now, i just have to get myself in order. i need to know what dreams i have. i need to know what i want to do. most of all, i need to be someone who knows myself. i seem so separated from myself nowadays. sure, getting good grades and acheiveing in ccas are cool but is that what i really wanted? besides, what you want may not always be what you get.

XyeThesis

I just came back from LLTC 06. The camp which i never wanted to go because i thought it would take up too much of my time. I thought this camp would command too much commitment and therefore i did not go. yesterday, jacq called me before i was about to leave camp and i just sat outside the mega SJI toilet where i can see all my juniors from there. then i thought again, this camp isn't a waste of my time after all. in fact, i feel enlightened that i've attended this camp. i've said touching things that made my juniors cry. i've done things to inspire them. right now, i could not feel more satisfied.

once again, i'm bombarded by the fact that i'm starting to fall in love again. however, this time it's jacq. i never thought myself to even like her but i always surprise myself. i feel like breaking free from all the clutches of relationships. i wish i can fly so i can soar beyond my capabilities. soar to somewhere no one can find me.

leadership. i always thought that leadership is about following the traits the all leaders should have. following examples from books. only recently have i found myself to know that leadership is your own style. your personality. the person that you are. not what others say that you should. you're leading, not following. you're gotta trust yourself and the people around you. even when you're falling. even, when you're in the dark.
-XyeThesis

npcc

it's been a while since i enjoyed so much fun in npcc. after one moment of grief, i know truly know what is the meaning of letting go. the nco training camp, though boring as it is, has made me realised where i was 2 years ago when i was in the exact same camp. time passes and now i see myself training in the training camp. it is really enlightening to know that i have made an impact in some of the sec 3s that went through the camp. though i'm not too sure whether by doing this i have saved the unit, but i am sure that no matter whether they are fit to lead the unit or not, i know they'll pull through - like i did, 2 years ago.

i wrote rules but i knew rules were meant to be broken. time passes and rules expire. but then i thought, does everything need rules in order for everything to be right again?

to the sec 3 ncos:
it's been a pleasure knowing you all. i just want you all to know that whatever you do that's for the sake of the unit, i'll always support you.

i supposed there are those who'd said i had it easy coming this far. the journey that i walked was carried by the wind. wherever it wanted me to go. wherever god wanted me to go. as shaded as my eyes can be, i always know that there is a light unto my path. life can be scary as well as peaceful; boring as well and fun; problematic as well as manageable. i still want to, however, hold on to being a leader.

it'a hard to tell the truth when no want wants to listen, when no one really cares what's going on. it's hard to stand alone, you need someone beside you. your spirit, your faith, must be strong.

it's time to face my fears in the face.

XyeThesis
`Don't walk behind me; I may not lead.
Don't walk in front of me; I may not follow.
Walk beside me; that we may be as one.

I've been wanting to right this entry for quite sometime now. Everything seem to pass to fast nowadays. Life really do appear to be transient, something that seems to appear for only a while. The other day at my school's Drama Performance i saw Melissa again. This time i was holding her hand with her head tilted on my shoulders. I thought i really wanted her to be my girl and when her did that i felt myself to be closer to the reality. Thing is, right now i'm in a dilemma. Angel returned to me and Jaqueline's another pick.

I just saw the Logistics Procedures (Rules and Reg.) that i've written last year. Now i thought, does everything need rules in order for it to work well?

right now, i just have to get myself in order. i need to know what dreams i have. i need to know what i want to do. most of all, i need to be someone who knows myself. i seem so separated from myself nowadays. sure, getting good grades and acheiveing in ccas are cool but is that what i really wanted? besides, what you want may not always be what you get.

XyeThesis