Another Change of Heart

I've harboured thoughts about you. However, as i looked towards the sky, anchored with stars, i realised that this time with you has forged a trail in out hearts. I looked into your eyes, suffused with passion, and knew that you harboured thoughts about me too.

"We can control how we respond to what happens to us, but we cannot control the things that happen outside us," is what Sean Covey, Steven Covey's son, said. What happens to my unit is beyond my control. Being in an hierarchical organisation, even if you're the head, you cannot do much without consulting anyone. God has been with me all these while during my time in the Unit. Therefore, many things were revelated. Not all at once, but slowly. Only so that i can take the blows one by one.

Things that've been revealed:
1. Sec 5 attendance wasn't marked since last year.
2. The hierarchy chart i made was throw away.
3. The publicity materials i made were throw away too.
4. Power hungry NCOs

There's more from where those came from. It's like a repertoire of "evil deeds" they've piled up over the months. The thing is, because it's been a secret, they did not even know that i've found out about it. Sometimes, i really thank God for the bits and pieces of experience that i've learned to pick up along the way. I didn't say NPCC affected my life adversely. I only said that it has affected me for that particular year and months. The intrinsic nature of all new NCOs are that they get the idea that they'll be able to do things that they've never experienced before. That's why some of them get the "it's pay back time" attitude.

Mrs. Leslie's English lessons never fail to be interesting. From time to time, she cracks jokes about sex and society. Also, she never fails to bombard us with profound words, filled with such complexity for usage, which sometimes we never even knew they existed. Due to the nature of the teachers and students in St Pat's, i feel that St Pat's is being more of a dream than reality. It's been something surreal. Reason being, i never thought i could experience so much in this 5 years. Experiences that changed me dramatically. It's not everyday that you'll find a class filled with wonders and many ticking time bombs. It's not everyday that'll you find yourself inspired by laughters. It is however, an everyday for me...

1 A1, 2 A2s, 3 Bs and a very inadvertent F9. Grrr... My grades for my common test.

I wanna give love again!! I wanna hug. I wanna kiss. I wanna hold hands. No i'm not desperate, i'm just hoping. It's rare that you see adolescent lovers proceed on into the "real world" and get married. That's why adults always say that love at this age isn't real and it will not last. They fail to realise however, maturity is not confined to a certain age group and the society has changed.

I have to finish off what i started even if it means having a half hearted heart.

Things to complete:
1. Drill Training Manual for SPS NPCC

Although it's only a single item, i made it sound such a drag. Actually, it's because it actually is a drag. I'm including all my experiences and "expert" point of view. I have to finish it because people from other units have helped me with it and it's only fair that i complete it and include their names in the credits.

People to thank for helping in the DTM:
1. Fa (Although i broke up with you, the thought still lingers)
2. People from the unofficial NPCC Forum (Basil, wei xiong)
3. CIs from all over the island that've helped me in this endeavour.
4. Angel, for the times you told me not to give up.
5. My mum, for telling me to hold on and never let go for what is right.
6. God, for being there with me.
7. Darrick, for listening to my woes and in end listening to yours.
8. SPS NCC (Land, Air) NCOs 2004 - 2005
Last but not least, you guys, SPS NPCC NCOs 2004 - 2005

In the end, the people who helped me are not those from my unit. Except for the NCOs that stuck together from 2004 to 2005. Us.

XyeThesis,
`Memories stay...

Another Change of Heart

I've harboured thoughts about you. However, as i looked towards the sky, anchored with stars, i realised that this time with you has forged a trail in out hearts. I looked into your eyes, suffused with passion, and knew that you harboured thoughts about me too.

"We can control how we respond to what happens to us, but we cannot control the things that happen outside us," is what Sean Covey, Steven Covey's son, said. What happens to my unit is beyond my control. Being in an hierarchical organisation, even if you're the head, you cannot do much without consulting anyone. God has been with me all these while during my time in the Unit. Therefore, many things were revelated. Not all at once, but slowly. Only so that i can take the blows one by one.

Things that've been revealed:
1. Sec 5 attendance wasn't marked since last year.
2. The hierarchy chart i made was throw away.
3. The publicity materials i made were throw away too.
4. Power hungry NCOs

There's more from where those came from. It's like a repertoire of "evil deeds" they've piled up over the months. The thing is, because it's been a secret, they did not even know that i've found out about it. Sometimes, i really thank God for the bits and pieces of experience that i've learned to pick up along the way. I didn't say NPCC affected my life adversely. I only said that it has affected me for that particular year and months. The intrinsic nature of all new NCOs are that they get the idea that they'll be able to do things that they've never experienced before. That's why some of them get the "it's pay back time" attitude.

Mrs. Leslie's English lessons never fail to be interesting. From time to time, she cracks jokes about sex and society. Also, she never fails to bombard us with profound words, filled with such complexity for usage, which sometimes we never even knew they existed. Due to the nature of the teachers and students in St Pat's, i feel that St Pat's is being more of a dream than reality. It's been something surreal. Reason being, i never thought i could experience so much in this 5 years. Experiences that changed me dramatically. It's not everyday that you'll find a class filled with wonders and many ticking time bombs. It's not everyday that'll you find yourself inspired by laughters. It is however, an everyday for me...

1 A1, 2 A2s, 3 Bs and a very inadvertent F9. Grrr... My grades for my common test.

I wanna give love again!! I wanna hug. I wanna kiss. I wanna hold hands. No i'm not desperate, i'm just hoping. It's rare that you see adolescent lovers proceed on into the "real world" and get married. That's why adults always say that love at this age isn't real and it will not last. They fail to realise however, maturity is not confined to a certain age group and the society has changed.

I have to finish off what i started even if it means having a half hearted heart.

Things to complete:
1. Drill Training Manual for SPS NPCC

Although it's only a single item, i made it sound such a drag. Actually, it's because it actually is a drag. I'm including all my experiences and "expert" point of view. I have to finish it because people from other units have helped me with it and it's only fair that i complete it and include their names in the credits.

People to thank for helping in the DTM:
1. Fa (Although i broke up with you, the thought still lingers)
2. People from the unofficial NPCC Forum (Basil, wei xiong)
3. CIs from all over the island that've helped me in this endeavour.
4. Angel, for the times you told me not to give up.
5. My mum, for telling me to hold on and never let go for what is right.
6. God, for being there with me.
7. Darrick, for listening to my woes and in end listening to yours.
8. SPS NCC (Land, Air) NCOs 2004 - 2005
Last but not least, you guys, SPS NPCC NCOs 2004 - 2005

In the end, the people who helped me are not those from my unit. Except for the NCOs that stuck together from 2004 to 2005. Us.

XyeThesis,
`Memories stay...